oh my.
this summer has been quite the summer.
quite the summer.

i regret to inform you that it was not what you think it was.
it is not how i planned it.
wonderful things happened.
awful things happened (but thats only naturally).
if i went into all the silly little details i would have you hanging on to the last of your sanity.

let me sum it up.
excuse me if i sound crazy.

friends.
i see bright new friendships.

to my girls (you know who you are): honestly, i would be lost without you. so cliche, so high school, but so true. we me fade but, right now you are the people that keep me sane. thanks for putting up with me. thanks for being crazy with me. and thanks for loving me.

to my newest companions: nice to meet you. you've only had a glimpse of what this girl can be. but i hope that you will stick around long enough to find out whats in store.

to my lost friends: it was nice while it lasted. people come into your life so easily and they can just as easily leave you. i dont know our circumstances (or, i do, i just will not point each one out) but you will be missed and ive taken a part of you with me and i hope you have a piece of me. if we were a short lived friendship, i cannot say why we grew apart but i would only hope you could take a few more moments to get to know me, the real me. if we were a long lasting relationship, i will miss you dearly. you have influenced me more than you know and ill always remember.

to my future friends: you, my friend, dont know what your getting yourself into. i would only hope you would go into our friendship open minded and free; easily adjusting to my certain inconsistencies. i easily look into peoples imperfections but i can just as easily forget them. if only you would take a few moments to forget mine, and know that tomorrow is a new day.

future.
take me where you will.

like my past posts, i cannot say where i will be in the future. over the summer it has become even more vague to me. i have gone places, i dare not go before. i have dreamed dreams, i dare not dream before. one thing is consistent to me, and i have lost that as well. i could retrieve it, but i dare not too, for i do not know where to search anymore. and if this search prevails, i do not know if i dare go where it may lead me. i could retrieve, i should retrieve it, but i am not as strong without it and i cannot go alone.

school is the future, yes. eh. i can't say im excited about that. i wont dwell on it now, so i end.
the end.

oh, i did find something out this summer.
peoples first impressions of me are...to put it quite simply...awful.
i am quite the odd one when i first meet people.
if its awkward, ill talk and talk (usually about myself) to try and cover the...um...awkwardness.
so please excuse that.
if i feel left out, ill push myself to the side and stick my head in my phone (sometimes texting, sometimes only pretending to text)
but forget all this.
my point is...
thank you, to all the people that have taken a little more time and gotten to know me.
thank you.

-mk