
school today.
oh the insanity.
school isnt the same. friends arent the same.
school is harder. friends are harder.
im finding it hard to trust these days. rarely do i find a friend i can put all my trust in, and if i do find a friend, i then must find someone who cares enough to listen. friends will go on and on about this and that, and i still find it hard to believe, so i listen, but they dont know i dont trust them. they dont know that i seem to be finding a lie in everything they say. i guess thats bad. right? i shouldnt be critquing (sp?) people. i love them to death, but come on, grow up. tell me the truth. the hard, raw truth. i dont care if it hurts, but dont lie to me. i wont lie to you, and you know that. yeah , i may seem harsh and mean, but seriously, think about it wouldnt you rather know the truth even if it hurts than a sugar coated lie?
if you tell me the truth, then you have my respect. i dont know what i "earn" from telling the truth, probably just a bad name, "big mouth" "rude" etc., but at least i know i told the truth. yes, people have feeling. yes, i have feelings. i guess i need to work on that. i seem to get so upset about my feelings but take into no consideration other peoples feelings.
God,
Help me to think before i speak. Help me to hold my tongue. You gave me two ears and one mouth. So help me to let You do the judging and let my stay silent.
-Amen